Mark Twain once said, "The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why." Recently, I've been feeling a little lost. Struggling with anger, depression, and frustration with very little understanding of where it is coming from. It isn't finance-related or work-related, I just feel alone, spinning in a black hole thinking I'm letting everyone down.
As I was flipping through social media at 11 PM last night, I came across this quote in an old photo and it got me thinking, I'm 35 years old, and what is my why? I don't know what that means, but it got me thinking about why I seem so sad and why that matters. And it does matter. Understanding that you don't feel complete matters and being able to communicate that to others around you is one of the strongest steps you can take in feeling whole again. I personally struggle with showing my feelings to others, just like most people struggle to share their financial information with people. For me, feelings are the scariest thing in the world, and the more you put them out there the more you give people the opportunity to hurt you.
So why am I sharing this with you? I want you to know that nobody has it fully together. We all struggle in our own way. We all make mistakes, get hurt, and hurt others, but it is what we do after the mistakes that define who we are going to be. Are we going to rise or fall or are we going to wallow in our self misery? There is always the opportunity to fix something that is broken so don't be afraid to take a chance, fail, and get back up and do it better. Today, I'm not okay, but every hour, every day, every week, every month, and every year is a new beginning. Be open and allow your experiences good and bad lead you to your why.